Today was very angry over a situation. It may look small to others, but it a big thing for me...
My darling, well i duno what else can i pin point about him anymore... he is just way too good for me.. he shower his love and concern on me. His warm hugs make me feel secure.
I do admit my darling is a veri intelligent man. But i dun like the way u do darling... I know last minutes studying and revising for test is a very common things happened nowadaes. But ur las few mins studying is like just few hours b4 u hv to prepare to go sch. (late midnight...)
Is not that I'm finding things to argue. Because it is not a small things. Me as ur GF, i got the responsibilities to care for ur well-being. See-ing you study until so late, make me worried about whether u can wake up the nex morning to take ur test and abt ur health. You don't know how to take care of urself, how are u gg to take care of me?
What if... I'm the 1 study late night las min? and nex morning mus wake up... not enough sleep? Won't you hv any feel for it? I know I'm at fault throwing attitude at u just now, and even kup ur phone. But u really make me to a point that i wana gif up nagging u to study. Do u ever know how worried i am where i scare u can't wake up when i called you...
You are a Poly student. Great chances...I worked so hard for nearly 8 yr with good result just to get into Poly to get a diploma.Ya.. i worked so hard... and yet i see-ing u like dis.. u noe hw i feel...? Shall I not deserve a place in Poly...?
You did tell me that when u got study and you also got stress. But u chiong ur study at the las few hrs... midnight... can u show me that study is impt? i can sacrified my time for not doing dis and that jus to study chapter by chapter so that i can finish studying on time. Did u see how i prior my work? i do in by action...
If I dun care i wouldnt be angry... You are a man... u must think for ur future.. not for a women to think for u... you understand...?
Is not that I'm finding argue. Who will like a relationships with argument? who will purposely go create argument for a relationship?
17 March 2008 What Happened?
well... todae was a veri crazy day for me... arguing over small things. maybe we treat each other differently bah. When u got outing wif ur frens, i will let you go even though i'm not gg wif u.
but to u, u will nv let me choose. what u will do is "i nv go, u canot go." sometimes i felt that i'm being tied up by u. nevertheless i do try my best if u sae canot den i dun go but... dis is an outing wif my frens... organiser not me. they inform and all of us is jus to follow up de pace. steamboat, not i plan de... but what can i do... canot becos i'm on diet den i shao people xing. even im on diet i will still go the most i dun eat much... even waste money i will go... Y? becos is an outing among us.. i dun want becos of me everione sad.
i wonder where is my understanding boyfriend gone to...
i did ask u go... i ask u whether it's ok wif the plan becos i respect u as my boyfriend. but what i get in return? you said hurting words to me. "你不是说我没有去你也会去。还问我for what ?" and "nex time ur fren outing i dun wan to go.. dun call me go." and my fren was so frenly informing me to bring my bf too. well, nvm...
hv u eva think that im sandwiched. is not that i dun listen to u... but hv u eva place urself in my position? eg. u got a class outing, long long 1 time, ur fren invited you... i die die dun wan to let u go unless i'm going... and i said dohs hurting words to u. how would u feel.
and in the 1st place i did wan u to come along... and yet... haizz...
nvm.. u dun wan to go nvm.. i go myself... i duno whats the point for u to angry. i did ask u go. i did inform u abt the plan.
dun eva tel me u angry becos i onli can go with u... if u nv.. i canot go... becos i onli wan a reasonable and understandable boyfriend.. n i wonder where he gone to... i noe dis sentence will make u angry or hurt.. but its u sae de.. got things jus sae dun keep it.
i wonder y you can but y i cannot. i noe ur reason will be im a female... but so what.. both are human.. doesnt mean i canot enjoy my teensage life in the way i want... and i'm not those who behave like ah lian. if u will to tell me i'm way too far to be ur gf... i'm sorry i already changed to my limit till i duno where can i change to make myself better... i look back in my life...i had already changed alot till i duno who i am.. if u still wan to angry.. i got nothing to sae...
17 March 2008 My Boyfriend
Today i wana say about my boyfriend hahas... hmm... well.. my dis boyfriend is great. Good man... not praising but fact. hahas... howeva... sometime both may felt not really understand each other. at times may hv some arguement gg on. but yea... we just back to normal silently.. i duno hw to express hw i feel towards him... can sae i dun reali understand him bah...he dun really understand me either. but no matter what arguement, when a new day begin, both will felt nth happened ytd lol! cute right?
I simply love it in dis way... cos its better den i holding on to the arguement and make the relationship turn bad.
He ain't romantic but he got his ways to show that he do care for me... he dun sae how much he does... but he show me that he care. thats what i really appreciate what he done for me... sometimes maybe some misunderstanding make small things become big arguement... but i hope he will understand that... sometimes things is unpredictable.. i canot predict what will happen to me in the nex minutes... and i cannot predict what will happen to u the nex minutes. so yea... arguement will be alwaes there... not a bad things.. but a good way to strengthen the relationship.. i hope in this relationship we can reali try to understand the things that happened that bring up the arguement than reali starts a conflict unknowingly even though we dun reali understand each other. =)
*Loves*
01 Feb 2008 Smoking..
I really wonder y... if ppl can quit, y cant u... well, do i really want too much from u?
u said u gg out wif fren may smoke more... alright i allow...
u said dun stop u frm smking when u r wif fren... ok i allow u..
i noe u got study n will hv stress... so i allow u to smk...
when u nv smoke for long hours.. i allow u to smoke...
asking u to quit is that too much...
im still glad that u already reducing.. but whats the point if u reduce but u nt quiting... i rather u smoke since u not quiting.. for what reduce.. haiz... if u are the 1 not smoking... n im the smoker... what will u do...
everidae worrying abt ur health... worry u will easily sick as in hving cancer all dis.. do u noe that? ya i think u wont bother...stoping u frm smoking seem like i forcing u... alright den... i will let u smoke..
*Only ppl hu reali cares for u... will cares for ur everything*
if u were a stranger to me.. smoke all u want...
but... if u reali dun wana quit i wont force u..
31 Jan 2008 Would You Be There...
If I were blue would you be there for me And whisper in my ears that's okay Would you stand by me let me hold you tight And say you love me one more time
If I feel good would you slow dance with me And touch my lips with tender love and care Would you die for me would you run with me And never look back
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away Would you be there...
if i am away would you stil think of me and wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now) and would you die for me would you run with me all the way
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away would u be there...
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away would u be there..for me.
20 Jan 2008 Music..
hmmm.. kinda of moody at this moment. Im someone that kind of hving some interest in singing... I felt that is an veri mysterious things.. cos wheneva im stress or sad... or maybe boring, I will like to sing... so as to release the "me" inside.. kind of chim... but in simple words is... to release my stress. Im nt someone who wana sing veri veri chim.. but im someone hu onli score for avg in singing bah...
due to some matter... i drift away frm my training... that makes my singing n my training i done gone to drain... n the interest started to fade too.. maybe is lost of confident bah... seldom train... as a vocalist.. singing each n everitime is good as it helps u to train ur vocal too. but... haiz... ya.. felt like giving up on singing le..
maybe after finishing my ITE life, I will find a job n quit singing bah.. on behalf is becos interest faded... n oso... me n my bf mit twice a week.. if i work after i grad, that would be less mitting time.. n training wil make me more pack. Aniwae i hope Vdgian can uds my position if i really quit. I hv my life too..mayb to some, working n cca can be cope by individual.. but to me different bah... cos even now.. i felt that im too pack to schedule my time.. i cannot imagine what if i enter the social environment.
Ahhh!! nv imagine i could angry until dis state!! Todae after sch my hp flat le no batt... worrying that pig canot contact me n will worried abt me.. so i smsed him that my hp gg to flat veri soon. well, after sch i went out wif my parents... n i bother to lend hp frm my bro to sms him that im outside with my family. After shopping, me n my family went to eat dinner..once again i lend hp from my bro n sms him again... telling him that im hving dinner nw... will be home soon.. well.. he replied "k.."
Well, i bought a new hse phone for my room as my old ones are spoilt.. n a set of comp speaker. When i reach home once again i smsed him that i reached hme. n den i hurry to set up the phone n speaker so that i can call him. By the time i done on setting up those things, is already 8.50pm. I hurried myself into the batheroom n sms him that after 9pm show call my hp.
well.. he replied... n its reali ridiculous... he sae he was outside.. well.. i reali hv a freaking hot anger in my heart. n veri cake xim too... I even bother to sms him that i go out wif my parents all dis... n him lei? he didnt even tel me he was outside... he alwaes expect me to tel him when im gg out or reach home.. u expect me to do dis yet u nt doing.. n u promise that u will too!! ya promises...haiz.. n ur reply was... u forgot!! u forgot!!!!!!!!! u forgot!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID U TREAT ME AS!!!! i oso forgetful!! y am i not forgeting to sms u... cos i miss u , i put u in a veri different place frm others!! thats y 无时无刻 i will sms u wheneva i been as also a promise i make to u.. just not to make u worried!! BUT HOW ABT U!!! ya mayb i shouldnt expect much from u...
I nt being unreasonable as long as u are out jus tell me.. is that a veri difficult task? i dun mind u go out wif fren but y like dis!! when u enjoy u got spare thoughts for me not! n what most ridiculous things is when the sms i send u saying that i will be home soon... ur replied was "k" WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u STILL didnt tel me u are outside... u sae u forgot!!! u sae u forgot!! how could it be!! hw!!! am i someone that u tel me u are outside i will scold u? am i? i noe im not... cos i nv scold u b4 wheneva u told me u are gg out.
U really tear my heart apart.
21 Dec 2007 开心。。
有你真幸福^^。。。
11 Dec 2007 你听见心碎声吗。。。？我听到了。。你呢？
心酸的不知该如何说起。。
Stupidity is my 克星。。also my 缺点。 but to certain ppl is a 优点 which is build in me.
But seldom ppl took it as my good point. n thats make me more n more reluctant to those words that ppl pin-point at me. since ppl prove that im stupid... so yes i am. i dun mind becos i am. kinda sad.. but im use to it.
Due to my stupidity i reali hold back my feelings for letting myself into another relationship. until i found him...I hope im not a burden to u. n i dun wan to be a burden to u. but i jus cant help it..im nt smart. no matter hw hard i work, im nt clever. previous relationships i been thru, they jus scold me stupid.. even in my face. mayb is a phobia bah..i dun wan to lose u... u can ta han my stupidity todae, tml, the dae after...bt nt foreva.
29 Nov 2007
Todae also boring too. at dis point of time. i felt like pouring out to sum1.. sudenli got alot of tots. I hope we can understand each other. I will listen to u is not becos of girl mus listen to guy.. i listen to u becos.. i want it to las. i nv wan it to end before everithing starts. but i hope u can understand that.. i still got the right to decide what i want. i dun wish to argue becos i dun listen to u.
I mean in a relationship, there is a certain commitment. I noe u do listen to me at times. i noe u retrict me towards alot of things. i dun mind. but what i mind is u didnt even gif me a chance n the right to choose what i want. Im sad.. becos i dun wan to end up like my previous relationship. i hope things can be solve by win-win method. settle down n discuss. even doh we noe each other nt long. but u should noe me well enuff. im not clever nor smart. u should noe what no matter hw much argue we had, i will alwaes stay at the same spot waiting for u to turn n come back to me.
I noe u care for me lots. thats y protect me against things that will harm me. i feel warm in ur arms. I feel protected when im wif u. the sense of security u gave is what i told myself to move on. Im gladful that i have u by my side...
Today was very angry over a situation. It may look small to others, but it a big thing for me...
My darling, well i duno what else can i pin point about him anymore... he is just way too good for me.. he shower his love and concern on me. His warm hugs make me feel secure.
I do admit my darling is a veri intelligent man. But i dun like the way u do darling... I know last minutes studying and revising for test is a very common things happened nowadaes. But ur las few mins studying is like just few hours b4 u hv to prepare to go sch. (late midnight...)
Is not that I'm finding things to argue. Because it is not a small things. Me as ur GF, i got the responsibilities to care for ur well-being. See-ing you study until so late, make me worried about whether u can wake up the nex morning to take ur test and abt ur health. You don't know how to take care of urself, how are u gg to take care of me?
What if... I'm the 1 study late night las min? and nex morning mus wake up... not enough sleep? Won't you hv any feel for it? I know I'm at fault throwing attitude at u just now, and even kup ur phone. But u really make me to a point that i wana gif up nagging u to study. Do u ever know how worried i am where i scare u can't wake up when i called you...
You are a Poly student. Great chances...I worked so hard for nearly 8 yr with good result just to get into Poly to get a diploma.Ya.. i worked so hard... and yet i see-ing u like dis.. u noe hw i feel...? Shall I not deserve a place in Poly...?
You did tell me that when u got study and you also got stress. But u chiong ur study at the las few hrs... midnight... can u show me that study is impt? i can sacrified my time for not doing dis and that jus to study chapter by chapter so that i can finish studying on time. Did u see how i prior my work? i do in by action...
If I dun care i wouldnt be angry... You are a man... u must think for ur future.. not for a women to think for u... you understand...?
Is not that I'm finding argue. Who will like a relationships with argument? who will purposely go create argument for a relationship?
17 March 2008 What Happened?
well... todae was a veri crazy day for me... arguing over small things. maybe we treat each other differently bah. When u got outing wif ur frens, i will let you go even though i'm not gg wif u.
but to u, u will nv let me choose. what u will do is "i nv go, u canot go." sometimes i felt that i'm being tied up by u. nevertheless i do try my best if u sae canot den i dun go but... dis is an outing wif my frens... organiser not me. they inform and all of us is jus to follow up de pace. steamboat, not i plan de... but what can i do... canot becos i'm on diet den i shao people xing. even im on diet i will still go the most i dun eat much... even waste money i will go... Y? becos is an outing among us.. i dun want becos of me everione sad.
i wonder where is my understanding boyfriend gone to...
i did ask u go... i ask u whether it's ok wif the plan becos i respect u as my boyfriend. but what i get in return? you said hurting words to me. "你不是说我没有去你也会去。还问我for what ?" and "nex time ur fren outing i dun wan to go.. dun call me go." and my fren was so frenly informing me to bring my bf too. well, nvm...
hv u eva think that im sandwiched. is not that i dun listen to u... but hv u eva place urself in my position? eg. u got a class outing, long long 1 time, ur fren invited you... i die die dun wan to let u go unless i'm going... and i said dohs hurting words to u. how would u feel.
and in the 1st place i did wan u to come along... and yet... haizz...
nvm.. u dun wan to go nvm.. i go myself... i duno whats the point for u to angry. i did ask u go. i did inform u abt the plan.
dun eva tel me u angry becos i onli can go with u... if u nv.. i canot go... becos i onli wan a reasonable and understandable boyfriend.. n i wonder where he gone to... i noe dis sentence will make u angry or hurt.. but its u sae de.. got things jus sae dun keep it.
i wonder y you can but y i cannot. i noe ur reason will be im a female... but so what.. both are human.. doesnt mean i canot enjoy my teensage life in the way i want... and i'm not those who behave like ah lian. if u will to tell me i'm way too far to be ur gf... i'm sorry i already changed to my limit till i duno where can i change to make myself better... i look back in my life...i had already changed alot till i duno who i am.. if u still wan to angry.. i got nothing to sae...
17 March 2008 My Boyfriend
Today i wana say about my boyfriend hahas... hmm... well.. my dis boyfriend is great. Good man... not praising but fact. hahas... howeva... sometime both may felt not really understand each other. at times may hv some arguement gg on. but yea... we just back to normal silently.. i duno hw to express hw i feel towards him... can sae i dun reali understand him bah...he dun really understand me either. but no matter what arguement, when a new day begin, both will felt nth happened ytd lol! cute right?
I simply love it in dis way... cos its better den i holding on to the arguement and make the relationship turn bad.
He ain't romantic but he got his ways to show that he do care for me... he dun sae how much he does... but he show me that he care. thats what i really appreciate what he done for me... sometimes maybe some misunderstanding make small things become big arguement... but i hope he will understand that... sometimes things is unpredictable.. i canot predict what will happen to me in the nex minutes... and i cannot predict what will happen to u the nex minutes. so yea... arguement will be alwaes there... not a bad things.. but a good way to strengthen the relationship.. i hope in this relationship we can reali try to understand the things that happened that bring up the arguement than reali starts a conflict unknowingly even though we dun reali understand each other. =)
*Loves*
01 Feb 2008 Smoking..
I really wonder y... if ppl can quit, y cant u... well, do i really want too much from u?
u said u gg out wif fren may smoke more... alright i allow...
u said dun stop u frm smking when u r wif fren... ok i allow u..
i noe u got study n will hv stress... so i allow u to smk...
when u nv smoke for long hours.. i allow u to smoke...
asking u to quit is that too much...
im still glad that u already reducing.. but whats the point if u reduce but u nt quiting... i rather u smoke since u not quiting.. for what reduce.. haiz... if u are the 1 not smoking... n im the smoker... what will u do...
everidae worrying abt ur health... worry u will easily sick as in hving cancer all dis.. do u noe that? ya i think u wont bother...stoping u frm smoking seem like i forcing u... alright den... i will let u smoke..
*Only ppl hu reali cares for u... will cares for ur everything*
if u were a stranger to me.. smoke all u want...
but... if u reali dun wana quit i wont force u..
31 Jan 2008 Would You Be There...
If I were blue would you be there for me And whisper in my ears that's okay Would you stand by me let me hold you tight And say you love me one more time
If I feel good would you slow dance with me And touch my lips with tender love and care Would you die for me would you run with me And never look back
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away Would you be there...
if i am away would you stil think of me and wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now) and would you die for me would you run with me all the way
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away would u be there...
Would you be there to love to be with me Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight Would you swear that your love is always true Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away would u be there..for me.
20 Jan 2008 Music..
hmmm.. kinda of moody at this moment. Im someone that kind of hving some interest in singing... I felt that is an veri mysterious things.. cos wheneva im stress or sad... or maybe boring, I will like to sing... so as to release the "me" inside.. kind of chim... but in simple words is... to release my stress. Im nt someone who wana sing veri veri chim.. but im someone hu onli score for avg in singing bah...
due to some matter... i drift away frm my training... that makes my singing n my training i done gone to drain... n the interest started to fade too.. maybe is lost of confident bah... seldom train... as a vocalist.. singing each n everitime is good as it helps u to train ur vocal too. but... haiz... ya.. felt like giving up on singing le..
maybe after finishing my ITE life, I will find a job n quit singing bah.. on behalf is becos interest faded... n oso... me n my bf mit twice a week.. if i work after i grad, that would be less mitting time.. n training wil make me more pack. Aniwae i hope Vdgian can uds my position if i really quit. I hv my life too..mayb to some, working n cca can be cope by individual.. but to me different bah... cos even now.. i felt that im too pack to schedule my time.. i cannot imagine what if i enter the social environment.
Ahhh!! nv imagine i could angry until dis state!! Todae after sch my hp flat le no batt... worrying that pig canot contact me n will worried abt me.. so i smsed him that my hp gg to flat veri soon. well, after sch i went out wif my parents... n i bother to lend hp frm my bro to sms him that im outside with my family. After shopping, me n my family went to eat dinner..once again i lend hp from my bro n sms him again... telling him that im hving dinner nw... will be home soon.. well.. he replied "k.."
Well, i bought a new hse phone for my room as my old ones are spoilt.. n a set of comp speaker. When i reach home once again i smsed him that i reached hme. n den i hurry to set up the phone n speaker so that i can call him. By the time i done on setting up those things, is already 8.50pm. I hurried myself into the batheroom n sms him that after 9pm show call my hp.
well.. he replied... n its reali ridiculous... he sae he was outside.. well.. i reali hv a freaking hot anger in my heart. n veri cake xim too... I even bother to sms him that i go out wif my parents all dis... n him lei? he didnt even tel me he was outside... he alwaes expect me to tel him when im gg out or reach home.. u expect me to do dis yet u nt doing.. n u promise that u will too!! ya promises...haiz.. n ur reply was... u forgot!! u forgot!!!!!!!!! u forgot!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID U TREAT ME AS!!!! i oso forgetful!! y am i not forgeting to sms u... cos i miss u , i put u in a veri different place frm others!! thats y 无时无刻 i will sms u wheneva i been as also a promise i make to u.. just not to make u worried!! BUT HOW ABT U!!! ya mayb i shouldnt expect much from u...
I nt being unreasonable as long as u are out jus tell me.. is that a veri difficult task? i dun mind u go out wif fren but y like dis!! when u enjoy u got spare thoughts for me not! n what most ridiculous things is when the sms i send u saying that i will be home soon... ur replied was "k" WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u STILL didnt tel me u are outside... u sae u forgot!!! u sae u forgot!! how could it be!! hw!!! am i someone that u tel me u are outside i will scold u? am i? i noe im not... cos i nv scold u b4 wheneva u told me u are gg out.
U really tear my heart apart.
21 Dec 2007 开心。。
有你真幸福^^。。。
11 Dec 2007 你听见心碎声吗。。。？我听到了。。你呢？
心酸的不知该如何说起。。
Stupidity is my 克星。。also my 缺点。 but to certain ppl is a 优点 which is build in me.
But seldom ppl took it as my good point. n thats make me more n more reluctant to those words that ppl pin-point at me. since ppl prove that im stupid... so yes i am. i dun mind becos i am. kinda sad.. but im use to it.
Due to my stupidity i reali hold back my feelings for letting myself into another relationship. until i found him...I hope im not a burden to u. n i dun wan to be a burden to u. but i jus cant help it..im nt smart. no matter hw hard i work, im nt clever. previous relationships i been thru, they jus scold me stupid.. even in my face. mayb is a phobia bah..i dun wan to lose u... u can ta han my stupidity todae, tml, the dae after...bt nt foreva.
29 Nov 2007
Todae also boring too. at dis point of time. i felt like pouring out to sum1.. sudenli got alot of tots. I hope we can understand each other. I will listen to u is not becos of girl mus listen to guy.. i listen to u becos.. i want it to las. i nv wan it to end before everithing starts. but i hope u can understand that.. i still got the right to decide what i want. i dun wish to argue becos i dun listen to u.
I mean in a relationship, there is a certain commitment. I noe u do listen to me at times. i noe u retrict me towards alot of things. i dun mind. but what i mind is u didnt even gif me a chance n the right to choose what i want. Im sad.. becos i dun wan to end up like my previous relationship. i hope things can be solve by win-win method. settle down n discuss. even doh we noe each other nt long. but u should noe me well enuff. im not clever nor smart. u should noe what no matter hw much argue we had, i will alwaes stay at the same spot waiting for u to turn n come back to me.
I noe u care for me lots. thats y protect me against things that will harm me. i feel warm in ur arms. I feel protected when im wif u. the sense of security u gave is what i told myself to move on. Im gladful that i have u by my side...
` 1996-2001 Corporation Primary School
` 2002-2005 Hua Yi Secondary School
` 2006-2006 Clementi ITE (Nitec in Retail Management)
` 2007-2008 Simei ITE (Higher Nitec in Accounting)
` 2009-2012 Temasek Polytechnic (Accounting and Finance)
` 2012-???? University of London-SIM (Accounting and Finance)
I LOVE...
` My Myself, Dad, Brother, Hadi, Family and Friends
` I DISLIKE...
` Smoke from Cigarette. I don't like the pungent smell
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We do not need a beautiful scenery to feel the beauty of this world, the pure heart with love is enough for us to feel the beauty of this world!
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