Just have a share of thoughts with one of my friend...
I came to notice that...
I was never happy after that break ups. What I was holding onto is friends.. my Dad.. my Bro... and this family.
I live and stay happy because of them. Because they really did their part to pull me through. Carry me with their arms.
But I knew... I was never healed... I'm just freezing the pain... the memories... and my past. I know no matter how much I try to put on a smile, the wound will never heal anymore. I don't blame anyone cause its not just once I met such situation. She implies me a thought... which I think what she say really wake me up to realise that no matter how much I try to convince myself that I healed, its only a bandage to cover my scar.
I closed up the door to my heart... thrown away the key to my heart. Till the day someone found it and open it up again for me. I won't deny that anyone that pass me by might be my Mr. Right. Is just that its still not my turn to meet him... I won't deny maybe one of my ex-boyfriend will be my Mr. Right too. I also won't deny my best friend will be my Mr. Right too. We just can't predict our future.
I wonder what is happiness? Well... I never knew what it was... Always think that if laughter can build happiness... and I will be happy... But now I realise... To be happy... Is to bring happiness to each and everyone around me. Even I know I'm in pain, at least I know people around me had their smile because of my blessing. Since there is no one I can love except my family... I will share my love with you all... It doesn't matter whether the wound in me is healed or not. Cause I knew it will never be healed again. Because I don't have the believe anymore. All I can do is to wait for someone to renew a bandage for me. And Love me like how my family love me. Love my family like how I love them. And there is where I live my life without regrets... And there is when I give my soul to you...
Here is a story... I'm not a Christian... But this story just make me feel that is what all my friend do it for me. Friends are just like how the Lord does in this story...
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life had flashed before him, he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious child. I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints...
That was when I carried you."
And all my dear friends... You all really carried me and always not letting me fall...
Just have a share of thoughts with one of my friend...
I came to notice that...
I was never happy after that break ups. What I was holding onto is friends.. my Dad.. my Bro... and this family.
I live and stay happy because of them. Because they really did their part to pull me through. Carry me with their arms.
But I knew... I was never healed... I'm just freezing the pain... the memories... and my past. I know no matter how much I try to put on a smile, the wound will never heal anymore. I don't blame anyone cause its not just once I met such situation. She implies me a thought... which I think what she say really wake me up to realise that no matter how much I try to convince myself that I healed, its only a bandage to cover my scar.
I closed up the door to my heart... thrown away the key to my heart. Till the day someone found it and open it up again for me. I won't deny that anyone that pass me by might be my Mr. Right. Is just that its still not my turn to meet him... I won't deny maybe one of my ex-boyfriend will be my Mr. Right too. I also won't deny my best friend will be my Mr. Right too. We just can't predict our future.
I wonder what is happiness? Well... I never knew what it was... Always think that if laughter can build happiness... and I will be happy... But now I realise... To be happy... Is to bring happiness to each and everyone around me. Even I know I'm in pain, at least I know people around me had their smile because of my blessing. Since there is no one I can love except my family... I will share my love with you all... It doesn't matter whether the wound in me is healed or not. Cause I knew it will never be healed again. Because I don't have the believe anymore. All I can do is to wait for someone to renew a bandage for me. And Love me like how my family love me. Love my family like how I love them. And there is where I live my life without regrets... And there is when I give my soul to you...
Here is a story... I'm not a Christian... But this story just make me feel that is what all my friend do it for me. Friends are just like how the Lord does in this story...
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life had flashed before him, he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious child. I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints...
That was when I carried you."
And all my dear friends... You all really carried me and always not letting me fall...
` 1996-2001 Corporation Primary School
` 2002-2005 Hua Yi Secondary School
` 2006-2006 Clementi ITE (Nitec in Retail Management)
` 2007-2008 Simei ITE (Higher Nitec in Accounting)
` 2009-2012 Temasek Polytechnic (Accounting and Finance)
` 2012-???? University of London-SIM (Accounting and Finance)
I LOVE...
` My Myself, Dad, Brother, Hadi, Family and Friends
` I DISLIKE...
` Smoke from Cigarette. I don't like the pungent smell
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