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Thoughts!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Thoughts!

Yesterday night, I'm lying on my bed just right behind my boyfriend. Looking at his back as he was concentrating on this school work. Before I fall asleep, image of our memories just flash pass in split second.

The day we met... His hair, his clothes, his smile...

And I came to realise that when I started with him, I don't love him at all. I started with him because of his attitude towards his family members. Giving me a impression of potential good man I wanted. Basically, I'm a very family-oriented person. So I hope my partner are also a very family-oriented person.

I felt sorry at times that I neglected him because of my dad. When we are out with my dad, he will walk alone. Whereas I hold my dad arms as we walked. I asked him whether he would mind that I neglected him. He said he is alright with it. And he said it would be better if I hold my dad. Not even just my dad. Even out with with my relative, I will hold their arms. Whenever they go up or down the stairs. Because they are elderly.

I love to hold my dad arms because I want to let him know that he is not alone. Outsider may thought that he is a sugar daddy. So what? he is my dad. Why should I care how outsider look at me? My dad don't even mind at all. I did ask my boyfriend before. Do you feel very wrong that I hold my dad's arm. "Like he is my sugar daddy?" I said. His reply was "No, Why should I? It's good that we treat our parents this way and why we have to bother how outsider look at us?

I smiled. In my mind I know he is the man I wanted.

I love the way he interact with his family members too. They are like friends. They respect each other too. He got a great parents, great sister, great brother-in-law and a very good grandmother. I feel very comfortable with them under one roof. I address my boyfriend's grandmother as "MaMa" same as how my boyfriend address her too.

Dear's dad always chat with me about their family history. Telling me about Dear's past. He always mention about those interesting moment that happened as and when to us.

Dear's dad know that I love to drink milo (in packets). He knew that I will go to his house most likely during weekends. He also know that Dear always complain that I drink too much milo. But I always say that I only drink during weekends. And it is the fact LOL! Dear's dad will secretly buy 2 -3 packet (6 in each) secretly for my consumption. LOL!

Dear's mum always tell me about Dear past haha! He is a very quiet person since young. He became more n more lame now hahaha!

He is the man who can magically triggers my feelings. Sounds wrong haha. What I mean was he made me laugh almost everyday.

His sister always announce loudly when HanQin bully me. And everyone will be like telling me "Don't bother about him"

MaMa-Grandmother always share with me her early days. Even show me her photo. It's interesting.

Sometime I just feel that I'm a very lucky women. All my ex-boyfriend's parent treated me very well too. I never met before those who will scold me or so de. With all I been through I can spend hours chatting with their mother. I think I'm too talkative. And they will tell me about their son when they were young. It really broke me into laughter when they told me those funny funny stuff they did.

I remember one of them. Back in my 16s. His mum called me and ask me patch with his son. -.- And she say she want us to be together. A very cute mother who care for his son so much. But his son never realise it at all.

Another case I remembered was... I can see the tears rolling in her eyes. Telling me how hurtful she was to know his son is a smoker. She realised it during "mother's day". I couldn't speak when she said that because I cannot do anything to help her but to tell her son to smoke less. Anyway, It's up to individual perseverance and determination to quit smoking.

Other than that, I also came to know that during his young age, he is not a very socialized kids. Relative don't seem to like his very much because he is very quiet. He told his mum to buy a bigger coffin. Because he want to have a place with her. He said that there is only one person who will bother about him. That is his mum. After hearing that I feel sad about it. I know he is different from others. He seriously got a very very great mother.

This flashbulb memories let me realised that I'm very fortunate women on earth. I don't have very attractive looks, skills and brilliant brain. But from parts of my life, I met wonderful people.

Anyway, I think that my boyfriend is super irritating haha!

I asked him a question.

Me: Do you want to buy a car next time?

Him: Yes, of course.

Me: What Kind? I mean 2, 5 or 7 seater.

Him: I want those big big kind. With a stamp behind saying "13 pax" *giggling*

Me: Hahaha very funny hor?

Him: Ok lah! those that people can sit and stand de ok?

Me: You want me to box you is it? *laughing*

Me: I'm serious lei!

Him: Ok lah. 7 seater.

Me: why? *hoping the answer is the answer I want*

Him: More family-oriented. Can bring family out.

Me: Is it you know I like the answer to be so than you say so de?

Him: seriously is my answer.

Me: "Smiled" ok.

It might be a very simple conversation. But it gave me a sense of assurance that even if we are not meant to be together, I know in some ways, he is still a potential good man. Like I say as long as not regarding any unfaithfulness, both some try our best to commit. As we both know that none of the relationship stays 100 years in honeymoon.

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